Changes

Things they are a-changing. There is one that I can't make an announcement on yet. Not until it happens anyway. Murphy likes me too much. But another change is in the air and I really need to work harder at it than anything else. After a short encounter with the Boss I really need to do some navel gazing. I hate navel gazing. I spend more than enough time doing that without making myself do it more. But where he is concerned I need to really inspect myself. For most of the Peanuts' lives the Boss has been my right-hand man. I've counted on him for so much. Unfortunately that has put a lot of pressure on him and he has come to feel as if he's not as important as they are. While I certainly don't see it that way, it is true from his standpoint. He does get neglected in some areas. He is expected to wait for my time and attention and then, when I can give it, I'm often too exhausted. When my time and attention was wanted for watching favorite shows or movies, it was easy. Relaxing. But now that he's a teenager and in high school it's so different. And I'm such a failure.

Yesterday in Bible study were were discussing 1 Corinthians 6 and I just kept telling myself, "This is so important! No one ever made sure I read this and understood it. I have to with the kids, especially with the Boss now." Perhaps Grandma did (her lunches always included a sermon) but if so, I don't remember it or I thought I could justify a different opinion with worldly standards. If so, I wish I had listened better.

Hopefully I can remember this when opportunities arise with the Boss. And he'll be more willing to listen than I was. It would help if I wasn't scared silly of being the mother of a teenager. As a friend said yesterday, "There's nothing like having teenagers to really get your prayer life going."